It’s been a minute since I shared one of these posts, but I’ve been needing a pick-me-up and I figured I could share another song that’s helped me over the past few years.
I really love the message behind “Alone in a Room,” because it focuses more on coming to terms with yourself, your flaws and mistakes and all of the things we don’t exactly want to face. Sometimes, we only have ourselves to blame, and that’s a hard pill to swallow.
Back in my darkest days, when I was convinced I’d never shake my overwhelming sense of unhappiness, I heard this song for the first time. And it woke me up to a few things I had to work on, things no one else could fix for me. I played it on repeat, along with the other tracks I’ve written about, and it granted me a light at the end of the tunnel.
Check out the acoustic version here.
“Alone in a Room”
I’ve been away a little while
Sometimes I just can’t help myself
When my mind’s running wild
I seem to lose grip on reality
And I try to disregard
The crazy things the voices tell me to do
But it’s no use
I tried to own it, write songs about it
Believe me, I’ve tried; in the end, I needed to breathe
Find inspiration, some kind of purpose
To take a second to face the shit that makes me, me
All I needed was the last thing I wanted
To sit alone in a room and say it all out loud
Every moment, every second, every trespass
Every awful thing, every broken dream
A couple years back and forth with myself in a cage
Banging my head against the wall, tryna put words on a page
All I needed was the last thing I wanted
To be alone in a room, alone in a room
I saw the world a couple times
Tried to cure the ache with absence
But that hole was still a hole
And my mind kept playing tricks on me
Feeling older every day
Took everything I had to not crash and burn
But I’m starting to learn
Sometimes I’ll fall down, sometimes I’ll lose hope
But those days will be few if I keep my feet on the ground
I might be lonely, but I ain’t alone here
So I keep pushing the limits of what makes me me
All I needed was the last thing I wanted
To sit alone in a room and say it all out loud
Every moment, every second, every trespass
Every awful thing, every broken dream
A couple years back and forth with myself in a cage
Banging my head ‘gainst the wall, tryna put words on a page
All I needed was the last thing I wanted
To be alone in a room, alone in a room
I can be better than I was
I can be better than I am
All I needed was the last thing I wanted
To sit alone in a room
All I needed was the last thing I wanted
To sit alone in a room and say it all out loud
Every moment, every second, every trespass
Every awful thing, every broken dream
A couple years back and forth with myself in a cage
Banging my head ‘gainst the wall, tryna put words on a page
All I needed was the last thing I wanted
To be alone in a room, alone in a room